IT'S ALL OVER ROVER OR HAS IT JUST BEGUN

I have had an awesome week – food on track, gym on track and cardio on track. I Am further ahead at this stage then I was 9 weeks out from the July comp so I am feeling really good.

I had a real big heart to heart with my hubby about a number of things (5 hours of very serious heart to heart) and he does not want me to do the Nationals. We spoke in depth about it and he is not being horrible but is really concerned about my health. He said he didn’t say anything last time because he was just speechless and was really concerned as to how thin I had become – espcially if I got sick again and had to go through what I went through last time (as you know they are still playing around with tests etc – and I have to have another biopsy at the end of September.

He reminded me that he supported me last time (July comp) even tough he really didn’t want me to do it and I promised him then that once I had done the July comp that that would be that.

He isn’t being horrible but is really concerned about my health so he has asked me to decide as to what I want to do knowing that he is totally against it.

So for the first time in my entire life – I am going to do want he wants (he will probably collapse and have a heart attack because I can’t thing of one other time that I have not done something that I really wanted to do (no matter what he has said)– but I just feel that if I have to spend another 25 years with this man that I have to prove to him that I do respect him and how he feels – if only this once. I know I can do it again and I will still be training and eating well but I have been having a mental struggle as to what I should do and I have tonight decided that I will do what I think is the right thing to do at this particular moment - so I will NOT be doing the Nationals.

I will still be coming along to the Nationals so I will catch up with everyone there and of course I will be going to the “pig out” afterwards with all my mad friends.

I am really dissapointed but I know in my heart that this is the right thing to do for me right at this moment.

Hope everyone understands.Keep training hard and will catch up soon.

All I can say is that I must really Love this man :)

Kimmy