IT'S ALL OVER ROVER OR HAS IT JUST BEGUN

I have had an awesome week – food on track, gym on track and cardio on track. I Am further ahead at this stage then I was 9 weeks out from the July comp so I am feeling really good.

I had a real big heart to heart with my hubby about a number of things (5 hours of very serious heart to heart) and he does not want me to do the Nationals. We spoke in depth about it and he is not being horrible but is really concerned about my health. He said he didn’t say anything last time because he was just speechless and was really concerned as to how thin I had become – espcially if I got sick again and had to go through what I went through last time (as you know they are still playing around with tests etc – and I have to have another biopsy at the end of September.

He reminded me that he supported me last time (July comp) even tough he really didn’t want me to do it and I promised him then that once I had done the July comp that that would be that.

He isn’t being horrible but is really concerned about my health so he has asked me to decide as to what I want to do knowing that he is totally against it.

So for the first time in my entire life – I am going to do want he wants (he will probably collapse and have a heart attack because I can’t thing of one other time that I have not done something that I really wanted to do (no matter what he has said)– but I just feel that if I have to spend another 25 years with this man that I have to prove to him that I do respect him and how he feels – if only this once. I know I can do it again and I will still be training and eating well but I have been having a mental struggle as to what I should do and I have tonight decided that I will do what I think is the right thing to do at this particular moment - so I will NOT be doing the Nationals.

I will still be coming along to the Nationals so I will catch up with everyone there and of course I will be going to the “pig out” afterwards with all my mad friends.

I am really dissapointed but I know in my heart that this is the right thing to do for me right at this moment.

Hope everyone understands.Keep training hard and will catch up soon.

All I can say is that I must really Love this man :)

Kimmy

9 MONTHS TO LOSE AND 9 DAYS TO GAIN

Hi Everyone - it seems like months since I last posted.

BIG THANK YOU to everyone who has left messages on my blog - it was lovely.

I have been celebrating my 50th for the past 3 weeks - Moet, Chocolate, any kind of bad unhealthy food that you can think of - every single food I wrote in the back of my diary that I wanted and couldn't have while I was training for the comp. Awesome effort from me :)

THAT BRINGS ME TO MY TITLE - It took me nine months to get into comp shape and it took me 9 days to put the same weight back on again - can you believe that!!!!.

I have had the best 3 weeks celebrating my 50th - and as Jaime has said with her poor friend passing way - LIFE IS TOO SHORT - so no regrets just lots of fun and it was all worth it. I definitely best start being healthy again or that MIDDLE AGE spread will start happening.

Well doing my comp was the most aweseome experience and I don't think I have even had so much fun - not the comp itself but the leadup to comp and everthing that happened to me during the weekend - every time we turned around we were laughing about something - I think everyone was probably laughing at me most of the time - it was just a crack up :) I am sitting here laughing while I am typing this just thinking about it - guess you had to be there.

Had a great time with all the girls - everyone is so lovely. Just a shame that we didn't have more time to sit and catch up.

I said I would never do another comp - I just wanted to prove to myself that I could do it at my age and I have done that but Sue has talked me into doing the Nationals. So starting from tomorrow I am back to healthy food and exercise. 12 weeks to go.

I had already booked a girls weekend in Melbourne on the same weekend as the Nationals and all my mad friends from Dubbo are going to be with me so i thought it would be fun to do the comp and have my drunken friends in the audience barracking - so that is the plan.

Ali is coming back over in October and most of the other girls that were there will be in Melbourne that weekend as well - so it should be heaps of fun. I just have to get my head in the right place and away we go again.

I got home from my comp and had a message on my phone from the doctor saying he was still concerned with my biopsy and wanted me to come in and have another one (I have already had four, been to Sydney for a second opinion and they told me my lump was gone and then they phoned me to say they were still not happy and wanted this other biopsy. I told the doctor that the lump was gone but after having more scans done - the lump is still there. I couldn't go thru the biopsy again just then so he has given me 2 months before I go back and have it done again.

I had to laugh - I had no breasts left (after dieting) and I was covered in spray tan etc - I must have looked a sight - I had to explain to him what I had been doing and he just laughed and asked me what my diet was and said he wished everyone of his patients ate that healthyly - Just as well that was straigh after comp and not now - cause it would be a different story - no healthy food for a whole three weeks - i am craving healthy food so that is good.

So life is hectic again and lots to do - so my goal is to check in to blog once a week - not sure if I can catch up with everyones blogs as I just don't have the spare time but I will definitely blog my journey and would love to hear from anyone who cares to leave a message.

I had the best leg workout today - 7 sets of squats, then supersets of extensions with squats, then one leg press, then ham curls, then calf press - my legs were shaking at the end of it - I am nearly too frightened to go to sleep cause I know that are going to be very sore tomorrow. :)

I also have a funeral to go to tomorrow. He also died from cancer - he tried to cure himself without all the chemo but gave into chemo about a year ago and passed away this week. He was only in his 40's - way too young. His funeral is in the morning - it will probalby be a big funeral - he was a very good well known hairdresser (not your typical hairdresser) looked like he should have been a football player - married - and a keen bike rider.

Hope everyone else has been healthy and exercising.

Keep living with passion
Kimmy

The after Feast on Lygon Street

MARGIE AND ME

WHAT AN AWESOME EXPERIENCE

It has been so long since I posted. I hsve had the best fun over the past week.

I FINALLY DID IT - I got up there on that stage at age 50 - I can't believe that I have done it. My one and only goal was to have the discipline to be able to feel comfortable in myself to stand up there on that stage and not make a fool of myself.

I not only did that but I walked away with 2nd Place out of four in the Masters Section. The ladies that I competed with have been doing this for years and competed in dozens of shows and they were soooooo supportive and helpful and all just beautiful people - it was so nice to meet them prior to the night and have their help and support - it really made me feel so much more comfortable.

I flew to Melbourne with my Backstage helper (Margie) on Wednesday and meet up with Sue and Damien at the Apartment in Kew. It was freezing cold and raining and the unit was an upstairs downstairs apartment and the heat was going straight up stairs and it was freezing in the unit.

We settled into the unit and Sue took us food shopping (no not clean food) - she took us to the store that had gourmet food like choc coated coffee beans, caramel macadamian Cheesecake, every cheese variety you could find, every chocolate you could think of - get the picuture - oh no we didn't go to buy anything - just went to see what we were going to eat after the comp - it was so much fun :)

We then went to a coffee shop to have a coffee - well I just watched them drink their coffee cause I wasn't allowed to have any :(

We went back to the unit and tried on our posing suits and had a bit of a practice.m Luckily Sue's room was really big and had mirrowed doors so it was great to practice in.

On Thursday we went to have our spray tans - I had five sprays and the lady sprayed my face (not a good thing to do when you are 50 - have lots of spots and skin cancer scars - it was very scary). Margie could not stop laughing when I walked out all coloured up - we took a photo of my face and all you could see were the white teeth -it even scared me.

Thursday night Di finally arrived at our unit about 11:00pm after getting a little side tracked with her directions. We all fell into bed around midnight.

Friday was great because Di spent heaps of time with us going through the posing and our routines - it make me feel so much more confident and she was a great teacher and she is such a beautiful person.

I was supposed to go and get another tan but everyone told me I was brown enought - so I skipped my tanning session and Sue went and got another one.

Friday night Di changed units to meet up with her friends from Queensland and Jodie arrived at our unit Friday and stayed with us. It was so good to see Jodie she is always so sweet and nice - nothing is a problem to her.

Ali and Kerry and Hilary also arrived and they nearly walked straight past me because they didn't recognise me with my tanned skin, face, no make-up and no hair-do, or dear it was not a pretty site but when they realised it was me we all had hugs and kisses and lots of laughts. It was so great to see Kerry, Ali and Hilary who all came along to support us at the comp - I cant believe how many beautiful people I have meet because of Sue Heintze. I have meet all these girls before except for Hilary - she just fitted in as thought we had known her for years - she is also just beautiful. I hope we all remain friends cause it is so good to have like-minded people who are striving for similar goals - awesome bunch of people.

We had more posing practice in the freezing cold in our tiny suits on Friday and Sue and I went to bed at 9:00pm while the others all went out to dinner. Margie's daughter came back to our unit but I didn't get to see here cause I was in bed.

On Saturday Margie and I got up at 6:00 - I had a shower and my first meal and then we started applying the Dream Tan - It took us about 1 1/2 hours to get it on - we were very proud of our efforts - cause it ws only the second time we had every applied it (we had a practice run bout 2 weeks ago). I stood around and dried for about an hour before I put my clothes on and then it was off to the hairdressers at 9:00 for hair and makeup. Well the hairdresser was still finishing Sue as she went over at 8:00am but she didn't start me until 11:00am. Sue phoned me at 12:30 to see where I was cause the show started at 12:00o'clock. We didn't arrive until bout 1:15.

I looked like I could have stood on the corner and made a bit of money - I asked the Taxi Driver if I look pretty and he looked me up and down and said -'NO'. Margie and I are till laughing about all our funny experiences.

Well finally arrived at the show and meet up with Sue in the back changing room where Di was helping her get ready. They were panicking because I was so late and I was going on before Sue - but it only took us about 15 minutes to get ready cause I had the BEST back stage helper - Margie.

Well all dressed and then out the back to pump up - have my peanutbutter and fig jam and pretend that I was confident.

Finally we were ready and yes I was the first one in the line so I had to go on first - we stood behind the curtain and then it opened and we were standing in our relaxed pose and they were not ready so it seemed like for ever that we were waiting and the compere kept saying relax ladies we won't be long - but there was no way I was relaxing from my relaxed pose. Anyway I got through it all with out too many blunders and when I got off I couldn't remember if I smiled or if I did the poses correctly etc but I did feel confident that I didn't make too much of a fool of myself.

I was only allowed to drink 400 odd mls of water during the day until after the routine section that night.

We all went into Kew and had Coffee and some of the girls had lunch (the ones not competing - Kerry, Di, Margie, Cheryl etc) - I just watched again cause I wasn't allowed to have any coffee or hot tea :)

Ok back at the venue and getting ready for the routines - I was up first in my division - I had a mental blank out the back and could not even remembe the first move - that was so frightening - anyway got my act together and all went off well on the state.

Back out for posedown and to my biggest ever surprize I was awarded 2nd place. I was just blown away. Not only had I achieved my goal of standing on that stage I had a 2nd place trophy - it was just an awesome experience and was so wonderful to have all my wonderful friends in the audience - oh yes and I guess I shouldn't forget Damien - Sue's hubby :)

Well after comp we went to Lygon Street and had our little feast with all the girls - I think we started eating at midnight but it felt like it was about 9:00pm. We tucked outselves into bed at 2:30 - but hardly slept a wink - not sure if it was all the food or the rush of the expereince :)

I got to see Rae, Jade, Kerry, Katie, Sam, Jo and lots of other people I have met over the net or at Phat Camp or through Sue Heintze - so it was just awesome but didn't have a lot of time to sit and chat.

There were 75 girls in the comp and I didn't hear one bad word said about anyone - everyone was really friendly and helpful and it was lots and lots of fun.

What an awesome expereince - thank you to everyone who was part of it and thank you to everyone who has sent me little messages.

I will try and load a couple of pictures and then it is back to the Tax and then I will be back to catch up with everone in a few days.

Thanks heaps everyone - it was just the best 50th Birthday ever :)

TWO WEEKS OUT FROM COMP

Let just say I am very excited - I would have said "stressed" but I am not allowed to use that word so the word of the month is "excited".

I have a busy two weeks leading up to comp. Tomorrow Saturday I start work at 7:00am cause we are running end of financial year and then I have normal work and open homes and of course all the paper work - that should take me until 2:00 when the gym opens and I will do my gym and cardio and then it is straight to a bridal shower for one of the lovely girls at the office and then straight from their to a friends house for a BBQ - no doubt that will not be an early night.

i am going into the office on Sunday at 5:00am so I can catch up on some work because I have to fly out to queensland on Wednesday. Sunday I will need to to cardio and gym and I have not practiced my posing at all for weeks. I can't get my routine and I am just hopeless at posing so I have some serious work to do there.

Wednesday I fly to queensland and don't get back home until Friday night. Jo Rogers is going to see me one night after she finishes at work to help me with some posing.

On the Saturday that I return to Dubbo I have more work and open houses and then a gardening course for the rest of the day. I will work all day on the Sunday and then try and get organised between work and gym and cardio and posing to fly to Melbourne on the Wednesday.

Somewhere in the middle of all that I have to do all my cardio and gym and posing and pack and wax and all those other things that you need to do.

Anyway just checking in to tell you this will probably be my last check in before comp. I am really scared but everything is going smoothly so far. God I forgot have to cook and freeze to prepare to take food away as well.

It is also tax time and the accountant said he wants all my gear by the 15th July - I told him he had bucklies - so I have agreed to do it by the 19th - guess what I am doing as soon as I come home from comp.

In the middle of all this I turn 50 on the 9th July but I am not going to celebrate my birthday until I come back home to Dubbo after the comp - think I will sit down in a quite corner with a bottle of red to myself and indulge :)

Everyone have a great couple of weeks and I will update you with my experience after comp.

Oh most important thing I nearly forgot - what am I going to eat after comp :)

Live with Passion
Kimmy

Photo my house from the Ultra-lite

Me flying in an Ultra-lite Plane with my friend Trev

Playing in the leaves

THIS IS MY GRANDDAUGHTER, CLAUDIA 4 YRS, ME AND MY MUM-IN-LAW - SHE IS 83 AND HAS LESS WRINKLES THAN ME :)

Accept and move forward
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If everything works out the way you planned, that's great. If

things don't work out as planned, that can be great, too,

because it opens up new possibilities to you.

Give your best thought, effort and attention to the factors

that you can control. And give your full acceptance to the

factors you cannot control.

What's the best response when some unforeseen event beyond

your control prevents things from working out as you

planned? Accept the situation, find the very best of the new

possibilities that have been created, and move forward with

them.

Acceptance of what has happened does not mean that you agree

with it or that you resign yourself to live with it.

Acceptance means that you see it for what it is and make

positive use of it.

Instead of constantly worrying that something will come

along to disrupt your plans, remind yourself that you can

adapt to whatever may happen. Instead being paralyzed by the

fear of what you cannot control, be confident in knowing

that even the most difficult situations harbor positive

possibilities.

Learn not to fight against what has already happened or to

be stopped by what might. Instead, choose to accept what is

and to use it as a springboard for magnificent success.

Ralph Marston