IT'S ALL OVER ROVER OR HAS IT JUST BEGUN

I have had an awesome week – food on track, gym on track and cardio on track. I Am further ahead at this stage then I was 9 weeks out from the July comp so I am feeling really good.

I had a real big heart to heart with my hubby about a number of things (5 hours of very serious heart to heart) and he does not want me to do the Nationals. We spoke in depth about it and he is not being horrible but is really concerned about my health. He said he didn’t say anything last time because he was just speechless and was really concerned as to how thin I had become – espcially if I got sick again and had to go through what I went through last time (as you know they are still playing around with tests etc – and I have to have another biopsy at the end of September.

He reminded me that he supported me last time (July comp) even tough he really didn’t want me to do it and I promised him then that once I had done the July comp that that would be that.

He isn’t being horrible but is really concerned about my health so he has asked me to decide as to what I want to do knowing that he is totally against it.

So for the first time in my entire life – I am going to do want he wants (he will probably collapse and have a heart attack because I can’t thing of one other time that I have not done something that I really wanted to do (no matter what he has said)– but I just feel that if I have to spend another 25 years with this man that I have to prove to him that I do respect him and how he feels – if only this once. I know I can do it again and I will still be training and eating well but I have been having a mental struggle as to what I should do and I have tonight decided that I will do what I think is the right thing to do at this particular moment - so I will NOT be doing the Nationals.

I will still be coming along to the Nationals so I will catch up with everyone there and of course I will be going to the “pig out” afterwards with all my mad friends.

I am really dissapointed but I know in my heart that this is the right thing to do for me right at this moment.

Hope everyone understands.Keep training hard and will catch up soon.

All I can say is that I must really Love this man :)

Kimmy

9 MONTHS TO LOSE AND 9 DAYS TO GAIN

Hi Everyone - it seems like months since I last posted.

BIG THANK YOU to everyone who has left messages on my blog - it was lovely.

I have been celebrating my 50th for the past 3 weeks - Moet, Chocolate, any kind of bad unhealthy food that you can think of - every single food I wrote in the back of my diary that I wanted and couldn't have while I was training for the comp. Awesome effort from me :)

THAT BRINGS ME TO MY TITLE - It took me nine months to get into comp shape and it took me 9 days to put the same weight back on again - can you believe that!!!!.

I have had the best 3 weeks celebrating my 50th - and as Jaime has said with her poor friend passing way - LIFE IS TOO SHORT - so no regrets just lots of fun and it was all worth it. I definitely best start being healthy again or that MIDDLE AGE spread will start happening.

Well doing my comp was the most aweseome experience and I don't think I have even had so much fun - not the comp itself but the leadup to comp and everthing that happened to me during the weekend - every time we turned around we were laughing about something - I think everyone was probably laughing at me most of the time - it was just a crack up :) I am sitting here laughing while I am typing this just thinking about it - guess you had to be there.

Had a great time with all the girls - everyone is so lovely. Just a shame that we didn't have more time to sit and catch up.

I said I would never do another comp - I just wanted to prove to myself that I could do it at my age and I have done that but Sue has talked me into doing the Nationals. So starting from tomorrow I am back to healthy food and exercise. 12 weeks to go.

I had already booked a girls weekend in Melbourne on the same weekend as the Nationals and all my mad friends from Dubbo are going to be with me so i thought it would be fun to do the comp and have my drunken friends in the audience barracking - so that is the plan.

Ali is coming back over in October and most of the other girls that were there will be in Melbourne that weekend as well - so it should be heaps of fun. I just have to get my head in the right place and away we go again.

I got home from my comp and had a message on my phone from the doctor saying he was still concerned with my biopsy and wanted me to come in and have another one (I have already had four, been to Sydney for a second opinion and they told me my lump was gone and then they phoned me to say they were still not happy and wanted this other biopsy. I told the doctor that the lump was gone but after having more scans done - the lump is still there. I couldn't go thru the biopsy again just then so he has given me 2 months before I go back and have it done again.

I had to laugh - I had no breasts left (after dieting) and I was covered in spray tan etc - I must have looked a sight - I had to explain to him what I had been doing and he just laughed and asked me what my diet was and said he wished everyone of his patients ate that healthyly - Just as well that was straigh after comp and not now - cause it would be a different story - no healthy food for a whole three weeks - i am craving healthy food so that is good.

So life is hectic again and lots to do - so my goal is to check in to blog once a week - not sure if I can catch up with everyones blogs as I just don't have the spare time but I will definitely blog my journey and would love to hear from anyone who cares to leave a message.

I had the best leg workout today - 7 sets of squats, then supersets of extensions with squats, then one leg press, then ham curls, then calf press - my legs were shaking at the end of it - I am nearly too frightened to go to sleep cause I know that are going to be very sore tomorrow. :)

I also have a funeral to go to tomorrow. He also died from cancer - he tried to cure himself without all the chemo but gave into chemo about a year ago and passed away this week. He was only in his 40's - way too young. His funeral is in the morning - it will probalby be a big funeral - he was a very good well known hairdresser (not your typical hairdresser) looked like he should have been a football player - married - and a keen bike rider.

Hope everyone else has been healthy and exercising.

Keep living with passion
Kimmy